The "Christmas" in all of this...

Having a holly jolly Christmas is not a command that is easy to fulfill. The last year has not been the most holly and jolly. I really have been trying to figure out how to celebrate the holidays during the most hard time of my life. I have felt like a person that missed the subway and stands there while the train whizzes by.

Grieving is like a bird. Even though birds are unexpected and inconsistent, they have a quite peace about them. Just like birds, I have learned grieving has the same characteristics. From the unknown, to the peacefulness.

 I think I am finally realizing the meaning of Christmas.  I usually associate Christmas with gifts and stressful time. I am realizing how peaceful it can be. Through the stress and sadness there is peace. Even though Christmas is not that jolly this year, I can hang on to the hope.

Maybe no one will read this, but I want to remember this feeling and never forget my sweet button. Love you Quinny.