through the eyes of Button.

What would  she see? A jovial world full of happy times and good memories? Perhaps her mama laughing and talking about how beautiful her little girl was and is? Maybe her auntie's are telling their friends about every little quirk their gorgeous niece has? Though these are all little snippets into our lives, I think she would also see a other side to our lives. A side where there was pain and suffering but I think she would understand and see hope in that.

She looks down. On the left, her mommy holding that cream, white blanket in her arms so tightly. Daddy in the boat at dawn sitting in anticipation for a bite. Auntie Jenni sitting by the window moving the paintbrush ever so slightly to create a masterpiece. Her eyes move towards the left as she notices Nanny sewing a little pair of baby mittens with such a grandma's touch. Papa in the kitchen walking back and fourth thinking and pondering. Auntie Picky, in the gym, hitting the ball with determination and a stubbornness. Auntie Kristen, working with fast hands as she continues to explore her passion of coffee. 

All these things are commonly known to be day to day life, but what she notices is a sense of longing for answers. She sees curious hearts and minds. They anticipate. The crave. They want. 

Looking through the eyes of wise, little Quinn makes me realize what my life looks like and what it needs to be. My life is a place of wisdom, creativity and questioning. I have been reselling with the question of what a Christian should look like and though I do not fully have this question answered, I have come to the conclusion that as Christians it's okay to question God and ask questions. 

Even though holidays like this one, can bring back a lot of unsorted and dark feelings, I am thankful for them. I am thankful for how He gives us curious hearts. Never wanting to stop learning more about Him. 

And because I don't get to say it nearly enough, I'm thankful for you, Button.

I mustache you a question...

     

         

 Today was a day for a mustache. I felt inspired by the horrific mustaches that men sport and so naturally I felt the need to make a shirt with a mustache on it? This logic does not make any sense but what my afternoon consisted of making a wonderful casual mustache graphic tee. I hope you all enjoy my afternoon as much as I did. 

1. First you will need your supplies to make your wonderful mustache shirt. 

Materials: 

-T-shirt

-Scissors

-mustache template

-paint (fabric will work better than acrylic but its all I had)

-Pin 

2. Take the mustache template and simply trace the mustache onto the t-shirt where ever you would like. I used pins to place in but this is optional. 

3. Start painting your mustache in with whatever colour you would like. I used a foam brush.

4. Shape your shirt. I decided to make my shirt somewhat of a crop top. I also rolled up the sleeves and sewed them for a more polished look. 

And that's it! I hope you came on

 the adventure with me to creating

 your wonderful graphic tee!

 

                           

The "Christmas" in all of this...

Having a holly jolly Christmas is not a command that is easy to fulfill. The last year has not been the most holly and jolly. I really have been trying to figure out how to celebrate the holidays during the most hard time of my life. I have felt like a person that missed the subway and stands there while the train whizzes by.

Grieving is like a bird. Even though birds are unexpected and inconsistent, they have a quite peace about them. Just like birds, I have learned grieving has the same characteristics. From the unknown, to the peacefulness.

 I think I am finally realizing the meaning of Christmas.  I usually associate Christmas with gifts and stressful time. I am realizing how peaceful it can be. Through the stress and sadness there is peace. Even though Christmas is not that jolly this year, I can hang on to the hope.

Maybe no one will read this, but I want to remember this feeling and never forget my sweet button. Love you Quinny.

Posing for the Poloroid

Today was a hot summer day. Perfect for a walk taking pictures with a poloroid and after, having a nice cold glass of iced tea. You may be suprised to know that is exactly what I did today with my sister and her boyfriend, Marko. Here are some of the pictures we took!

We had lots of fun and thought that the canola field was a beautiful setting.