I wonder if I am doing the right thing with my life, who I am supposed to meet, where I am to be.
Do I wonder too much? Some may ask this and I have asked this myself but I have come to the realization in these last few months, that it is okay to be curious. It is okay for me to be constantly wondering. People who I haven't even said a word to me, have told me I am curious. I never really knew how to react to that. However, I am starting to find that my curiosity is somewhat of a good thing. Curiosity has helped me get to where I need to be right now. I wouldn't have found my college or the amazing people I have in my life if I didn't wonder. I have such a desire to learn and stretch myself I find it hard to stay still and really love life where I am at.
This brings me to what is on everyones brain this week, Christmas. I am constantly searching for the "ultimate goal" that when I have a break like this, I start to truly look at things at a different perspective. I start to think about how life would have just stopped as soon as Jesus was born and there would have been such a rich peace. That is my desire this week. Peace. A kind of stillness that is so rare and beautiful. Curiosity can be part of the noise as well as the silence. I think finding a balance in letting our minds think too much or too little is an exercise that is so important. My holiday has been full of thinking in regards of what to do next year, but I know one amazing Lord who will always be constant in my life and I think that is something I really need to hold onto.
